Hi guys, I don't know if there's gonna be anyone reading my posts, but I sincerely hope there is because I've been a horrible person for procrastinating and not uploading new posts on my blog for like months? I have no idea when's the last time.
Anyways I was just looking back on a few of my posts not long ago and I really, really, miss those times. It's like I wish I could turn back the hinge of time, back till where I was my happiest. I'm not saying I'm happy now, but I just really miss those times. Going out after school, doing those crazy things, I WANT it back. :( it's like we're all in different places now, different schools, I really wish I had treasured those times more. But I guess it's no more.
Right now, I'm attached to the most amazing guy ever and I really love him. I'll never want to leave him, I'll never want this to end. It's our 42nd days together now and I can't believe I've bonded this quickly with a person. I want a low key relationship so I'll keep my thoughts private on this but baby, I'm not sure if you'll read this because you don't have my blog but I have to say this, I really love you and I can never imagine myself without you. You're everything I want and need.
I don't want to bore y'all with my life right now, because it's just studies, studies, studies and more studies. I feel myself losing it. It's so hard nowadays, and I don't know how I'll get through it, but I know I will. "You'll never know how strong you're until being strong is the only option you have." It's double the stress and all, but I know exactly what I want at the end of the days, a good certificate to carry with me for life. And if giving my all for this few months is what it'll take, you can bet your bottom dollar I'll be buying this.
I know I know it feels as if I don't have time for anything anymore, but it's the last 100m and I wouldn't want to throw away my past few hundreds meters for my last lap so I'll be giving my all. Going for Chinese intensive recently made me realize how it may seem difficult in the beginning, but when you step into the exam hall, you feel so ready, so prepared and you know you have given your all so the results wouldn't matter. That's all I need to know. This means that even if I get a D7, I'll still be proud of myself for surviving all the shit and getting through it. Sometimes, the outcome doesn't matter, it's the lessons you picked up through the journey. It's worth more than getting good grades. So with this, I'll end off, I really hope you'll guys will take my not-as-perfect advice and just ponder on your days ahead and what you feel like you want to see in yourself after this tough battles.
Till then, I wish you all the best, no promises, but I'll blog soon enough.
